Tuesday, December 26, 2006

“ God made men so that they could not fly.
You made me defy god.
Because love made me willing to fly for you”


The Hellcat thundered down the runway as the pilot throttled down the engine. The setting sun in the background castled a deathly shadow of doom on the tarmac, a little reflection of the horrible atrocities the plane has flown through.

The pilot stared out of his cockpit, among the crowd that had gathered at the air force base, ready to welcome the valiant pilots that had managed to hold the British front for yet another day.

He was looking for only one.

Behind him, another 2 hell cats lined up to land. The pilot single handedly clutched his joystick and pushed the aircraft off the tarmac and into the flight hanger. In the other, he clutched a bunch of roses. And in his mind, he clutched a glimmer of hope.

L’amour de ma Vie. The name splashed over his fighter. Sentimental yes, but it was true. For there was only one other.

He clambered off the fighter, patted his flight engineer who had come forward to reseal a leaking vent on the aircrafts cyclone 1800 engine.

He held the roses in his left hand and hid it behind, and in his right he held a note. A note he had written when waiting for orders behind the French lines.

He tried to pick out the brunette, the one and only he was looking for. He had only another 12 minutes before they were scheduled for another skirmish. He urged himself through the crown, intent on finding his one true love.

He felt a tap on his shoulder.

He spun around and was greeted by a peck on the lips.

He smiled.

She smiled. She had seen the roses.

She knew that roses were rare. They were restricted. Rationed. A love long lost from the reality of the war. She grabbed them and took a whiff. The pilot sniggered as he watched his one true love savour its aroma, nonchalant about the crowd around them.

They held hands as they walked to the hanger and sat down to talk, as they watched the sun set behind the horizon.

He pointed his plane out and she asked him what his call sign meant. He never did tell her and was never planning to.

They didn’t really finish their conversation, and the siren sang earlier than usual. The pilot grabbed his gear and left. The girl stared at his departing shadow, her heart aching. She knew somehow, that this was the last time they would meet. She didn’t want him to go.

As the hellcats of squadron 74 left for the vast expanse of the skies, it would be their last meeting.

It was a week. There were no tears when the officer handed her the letter. She reached into her coat for her handkerchief to wipe the raindrops off the letter when she felt a piece of paper that wasn’t supposed to be there.

“Dear Carmen,
I know I haven’t told you before.
And I hope I will get the chance to.
I just wanted you to know.

That I love you.
I’ll always do.
And I will
Until the last rose dies.”

Carmen stared into the house. There in the vase was the last rose. A paper rose. That withstood all time, That withstood eternity, That transcended all boundaries.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

you forgot.

no wait.

you didn't exactly want to remember.

you didn't exactly bother to remember

because to you it doesn't matter anyway.

and i waited for nothing.


seriously. look into your heart. stop toying

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

FCUK. I CANNOT BELIEVE THAT THERE ARE SUCH PEOPLE ON THE SURFACE OF THIS EARTH.

SOME PEOPLE WHO HAVE NO IDEA. AND HAVE NO DIRECTION IN LIFE.

THEY ARE WHAT YOU CALL FLOATING BODIES.

THEY FOLLOW WHOEVER PULLS THEIR NOSES.

AND THEY CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO FOCUS ON THEIR FUTURE.

THEY ARE INSULTS TO THEIR OWN INTELLIGENCES.

IN OTHER WORDS- ASSH8LES

YOU GIVE THEM OPPORTUNITIES. YOU HELP THEM FIND CHANCES AND THEY SLAM THE FCUKING DOOR IN YOUR FACE

SOME PEOPLE DO NOT DESERVE THE PEOPLE WHO CARE FOR THEM.

ONE DAY YOU WILL LEARN TO TREASURE YOUR CHANCES AND OPPORTUNITIES.

BECAUSE ONE DAY WHEN THERE IS NO MORE BACKING, NOONE IS GOING TO HELP YOU IF YOU DON'T FCUKING HELP YOURSELF.

ANG CHUANG YANG. FCUKING WAKE UP.

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Thursday, December 14, 2006

mr sia, i dont believe i didnt get it at first.
it only occured to me this morn what you were trying to say last night.

so, bingxi had surgery on his nose yesterday.

Sunday, December 03, 2006

MR SIA.

forgive me i just HAD TO attempt to do this.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
this is for you.



i pray your birthday wish comes true. if not, there's always the next birthday to wish again.
and i have a picture of ronaldo on my phone.

have fun.

click on preview then watch the vid.
"Did you know my brithday wish was for you?"

Ok maybe it wasn't the perfect way to start a 16th birthday. But for the first time in a long while, i've realised the importance and fragility of life. Of how one's endeavours can be belittled in an instant when the grim ripper decides to knock on your front door.

I went looking for a friend. A lost friend at that. I guess someone who had no idea where to go. Or what to do. Or for that matter, who he was.

For the first time in 16 years, I realised what a birthday was. because the best gift is giving.

I recieved 4 smses at the stroke of midnight, and unexpectedly, it came from the most unexpected people. And it made me smile. because they never did forget me after all. For 16 years I thought I was the one that was lost. Today i find meaning in the birthday. Its a day of change, realisation and enlightenment.

Its not something easy to comprehend i guess. Its subtle. Something that can only be savoured at a whiff's notice.

Happy Birthday.

Saturday, December 02, 2006


"When I was young, I fell in love
I asked my sweetheart what lies ahead
Will we have rainbows, day after day
Here's what my sweetheart said."

its sad that people never realise the things more important to them until its too late.

my thoughts are in a HUGE mess with a capital HUGE.

i'm not sure what i want anymore.

and i'm not sure where to go.

life is a roller coaster

its fixed

but is scary and unpredictable.

i want to get off and re arrange my hair

because although the buggy got stuck, the roller coaster didn't

life still went on.

the birthday cake cass and i shared
thanks shan!